Being a little bit selfish

I mentioned recently how run down I've been feeling, like my world is spinning faster than I would like, with no way to put on the brakes. I'm always busy, but it just seems like busywork because there's nothing to show for it in the end. It's not like my house ends up particularly clean, or my ironing pile ever completely disappears, or the kitchen floor stays spotless longer than half an hour. I could spend three hours on dinner, and it just gets eaten and I have to do it all over again the next day. Sometimes being a stay-at-home mom feels really unrewarding because of all the housework involved.

So I've been trying to change things and enjoy life a bit more. I don't want my years to fly by and I didn't even stop to enjoy them, you know? I went out to lunch and coffee recently, and that was huge because I just haven't been seeing ANYone lately. I'm learning how to just schedule things into my day, and let other things fall as they may. If I don't get dinner done because of it, so be it. If the laundry waits another day to be folded, so be it. I picked up a book for the first time in months, and finished it. I took some naps, which is also big for me. I am an anxious person, and when I know I have things to get done I find it hard to let my mind relax and stop so I can fall asleep. I feel like I'm wasting time when I'm napping, but I know how little energy and patience I have for the kids when I'm tired. I got to watch season three of Downton Abbey. That show is so fascinating, I love it! It's almost like reading a good novel that never ends. We even got to catch up with friends one Sunday recently at our house. It's been good. I'm more balanced, and I don't feel resentful. It's nice to be selfish sometimes...

xoxo,
Tanya

Quote from my Pinterest.